I know that almost all of my (very scarce) entries have related to community. But, really, that's the biggest (and perhaps most important) part of my life right now. I absolutely love what I've started with Circle of Hope, with my cell, with the Parsonage and I wouldn't trade it for anything. That being said, it has a lot of ups and downs. I love when we all sit around and watch The Colbert Report together. I do not love when I am literally in tears because of the number of dishes in the sink. I love sitting down with my cell and talking honestly about what works/what doesn't work and how we can love each other better. I don't love being wronged and having to have the confrontational discussion.
Do I believe we were made for community? Absolutely. That is clear all throughout the Bible. I believe community exists to be the physical presence of God on earth. I believe community exists so we can learn more about God, love, and others. I believe community exists so we can bear someone else's burden...and have our burdens borne.
If I'm being completely honest, in regards to my last entry--things haven't really gotten better. I realize, though, that it's a process. I had this idea in my head that I could just take a week out of life to focus on getting myself together, and everything would magically be okay. It's not okay. I'm still pretty much a mess. But in terms of my goal to humble myself enough to be taken care of by the community, I'm making insane progress. Because of this, have all my problems resolved themselves? Of course not. Am I learning everyday what it means to be in a give and take relationship with members of the kingdom of God? Hell yeah! It's messy but I love it.
There is nothing profound in this entry and for that I am sorry. I just wanted to write this to motivate myself to get going again.
